**Readers this is NOT a whiny or complaining post. Just trying to share some thoughts from a 22 year old’s perspective. I know I have a long path ahead of me, but it’s good to stop and ponder sometimes.
I’m 22. Once again, I feel like a complete freshman in life.I’m trying not to freak out here! But everything feels so new, and I somehow don’t feel like I have the energy to deal with it. Let me explain.
I have always been an overachiever. Blame it on circumstances or just simply that I have always wanted something better, I do more than most, and usually bust my butt to get there. I graduated as the Valedictorian in high school, was a band geek, UIL geek, ran cross country and track, volunteered, danced for a folkloric group, and worked for a non-profit. In college, I crammed four years of school into three, finished my master’s and more in 1 year (two semesters), meanwhile maintaining internships, leadership positions, volunteering, working for a start up for pennies, and keeping up with networking. The hard work paid off, and I landed a great position in a good company with health insurance! :)
Now, let me go back to my original point. I suppose at this point of my life I should be trying to figure out how to climb the corporate ladder, and advance in my career. I actually started with this mentality three months ago. But the fact that I am looking at a 30 year period instead of only a 4 year period is well to put in simple terms, baffling me. All this time, I have been working with a checklist. Get this done and that and this, and advance to the next level. Now, I am not quite sure what the next level should be. I’m still figuring it out.
What’s even more funny, is that a part of me doesn’t want to figure out what’s next. I have a tendency to live in the future, and I want to start living more in the present. I simply don’t have the energy or the drive this year to be an overachiever. Is that bad? I’m still going to achieve and work hard, but I don’t really want to do everything I should be doing like continuing to network this year.
In a world where there are so many who are constantly setting goals, I feel like a slacker. This goes against my nature, but it honestly feels really good. Then I remember a couple of things, both the freshman year of high school and college, my grades were the lowest, yet I had the most fun. Despite that, I still did pretty well in the end.
Maybe it isn’t so bad if I take this year to be 22. Do you remember when you were 22? Any good memories you care to share?
By the way, last week was pretty rough. I made a lot of mistakes at work and I felt terrible all week due to the post extraction pain. So glad, it’s a new week!
I’m, also, going to keep up with our financial goals. They are still on track, no worries. I don’t plan on going on crazy spending sprees.